I was a wimpy child… that’s why.
My story begins in the earliest years of the new millennium. I was a Girl Scout. I didn’t know what to think of it. Sure, some days I liked it well enough, but other days I wish Girl Scouts would just lose its’ fame and popularity and leave those of us whose lives would be better off without it alone… except during cookie season, of course. That was the best.
While I was in Brownies (the section of Girl Scouts specifically for girls from the ages of 6 to 9), we moved our troop meetings to a different facility. A new girl came to check things out and I thought I’d be a friend to her (the Girl Scout Law, after all, does say to be a sister to your fellow Scouts). I walked over to where she was sitting on the floor in the gymnasium and plopped my books down next to her. I stood next to her and smiled, then I said, “My name’s Cassie.” She looked up at me with the cruelest face I’ve ever seen a little girl muster and kicked my stuff across the room. I didn’t know what to do so I just walked over to my mom (who was one of the leaders) and cried. We left early, it was close to the end of the night anyway, and went home. On the way home, I remember crying and doodling in my notebook. It was raining and dark and dreary (a little too fitting, eh? Creepy…). So I started writing a story I called “Julie The Jellybean”. It was about a girl who was teased and had a rough life. It had nothing to do with my circumstances other than that I’d had a bad day, but it calmed me down a bit. When my mom and I got home, we called the Troop Leader, Miss Vicki, and told her I would no longer be participating in Girl Scouts. She said that she understood and she was proud of me for not freaking out and retaliating when the girl did what she did. Later that night, my brother Daniel’s toe nail fell off.
A few years later, I believe it was summer of 2008, I started writing a story called “Rose Marie“. My Tota (great-grandmother in the Mohawk language) wasn’t doing very well. I was also having trouble finding friends (though I’d lived in the same place and attended the same church for my whole life) and a misunderstanding with my closest friend (her name was also Cassie) was leaving me feeling depressed. So yeah… I decided to write about dealing with death and healing and friendship. I think that this particular story had a lot to do with me growing up. I’m not saying that I am a completely mature adult (because I am definitely not!), but Rose Marie was my best friend. Sounds lame, I know, but it’s true. Writing about her troubles and her growing up helped me kind of grow up with her. We are also very similar (we’re both straightforward; we’re both relatively quiet; we both prefer to be alone rather than with a group of people; etc…). She was, in a way, my punching bag. (So thanks, Rosie, for being there for me. You too, Julie Jellybean.)
Anyway, I’ve continued to write because I love it. The feeling when I finally word something right after ripping pages and pages laden with poorly worded sentences out of my notebook… it’s indescribable. Falling in love with my characters is probably one of my favorite parts of writing. Of course when that happens I hate to hurt them or make bad things happen, but you know… it’s gotta happen sometimes. And when everything turns out right, it’s not easily compared with anything else in the world.
Well… that’s why I started and kept writing. It’s not the most inspirational, most fascinating of stories, but it’s mine. I hope you liked it, if that’s how you describe the feeling when you read some girl’s blog about her melodramatic childhood and reason behind her writing.
That’s it. I’ll be back soon. 🙂
Oh yeah… if you’d like to follow this month’s blog chain, here it is… 🙂
The theme for this month’s blog chain is…
“Why do you write?”
Want to follow this fantastic blog tour? Here are the participating parties, day by day
May 5–http://towerofplot.blogspot.com–The Leaning Tower of Plot
May 6–http://correctingpenswelcome.wordpress.com–Comfy Sweaters, Writing and Fish
May 7–http://cassidymarierizzo.wordpress.com–Cassidy Marie Rizzo
May 8–http://insideliamsbrain.wordpress.com–This Page Intentionally Left Blank
May 9–http://weirdalocity.wordpress.com–You Didn’t Really Need To Know This…
May 11–http://thewordasylum.wordpress.com–The Word Asylum
May 12–http://lilyjenness.blogspot.com–Lily’s Notes In The Margins
May 13–http://laughablog.wordpress.com–The Zebra Clan
May 14–http://planetaryelastic.blogspot.com–Tangential Bemusings
May 15–http://realityisimaginary.blogspot.com–Reality Is Imaginary
May 16–http://otherrandomthings.wordpress.com–Dragons, Unicorns And Other Random Things
May 17–http://lonelyrecluse.wordpress.com–The Lonely Recluse
May 18–http://delorfinde.wordpress.com–A Farewell To Sanity
May 19–http://incessantdroningofaboredwriter.wordpress.com–The Incessant Droning Of A Bored Writer
May 20–http://allegradavis.wordpress.com–All I Need Is A Keyboard
May 21–http://teenscanwritetoo.wordpress.com–Teens Can Write Too! (They will be announcing the topic for next month’s chain)